I want a blade. I want a bottle of vodka. I want a bag full of different drugs. I want to be left alone in my room. I want to blast my music as loud as I can. I want to watch my skin tear apart. I want to watch blood drip from my body. I want my vision to get blurry. I want to be so fucking high that I can’t move. I want to numb out the world and visit Wonderland. I want to forget any worries.